Right Here

Listen to this song and tell me it doesn’t bring you to tears.

I’ve seen it happen, sitting to teach and pressing play.

It touches my heart and soul, too.

“I’m Right Here.”

It means so much.

This is where I am.

An awareness…

Brought to me by the things that happen and the things that don’t happen.

What do I mean?

I see someone getting engaged and I notice the discrepancy between where I am and where I thought I would be.

I see someone with a career, a travel itinerary, or resources that I desire and I think “why does that still feel so far away?”

I am not unhappy or ungrateful.

I am in love and loved.

I have everything I need.

And still, I grieve.

For the ideas I had about life unfolding.

For the little girl in me who kept thinking “When I’m this age…”

For the almost-30-year-old who is sometimes thriving and sometimes surviving.

But I am right here,

Always.


With love,

Alysa